Now that I’ve launched, I almost don’t know where to start, but maybe that’s the point? There is almost never any absolute certainty that the place in which you start is the perfect place to start. I think the point is to just start and go from there.
To be uncertain and then to actively move towards uncertainty is a beautiful thing. To have faith that a plan will unfold in front of you as you go, takes a substantial amount of courage, and is a completely underestimated character trait in my opinion.
More common is the idiom “I’m waiting for the right time”. How boring. There is never a right time. There is only now and we are free to do or not do.
Sometimes doing for the sake of doing, or thinking that something needs to be done is overrated. There can be an abundance of peace from a surrendered acceptance that the current moment and whatever form it is presenting itself in, is absolutely and completely perfect. No need to do anything.
But sometimes surrendering doesn’t feel quite right. Sometimes I find myself in situations where accepting the world and the way it’s moving around me no longer supports or sustains me.
I’ll look in the mirror and instead of seeing a sparkling twinkle of life in my eye, I see doubt and confusion. When I speak the words don’t come out right and the illusions of this world feel rock solid.
Finding myself in this situation never feels comfortable, and if I let myself believe that waiting for the right moment is the best action to take, I would be admitting that I am a powerless human being, a victim to the world and creation around me.
So instead I try to remember that the reflection in the mirror is completely my own and if I don’t like what I see, the power is mine to change it. I am the creator of this story and every moment is exactly the right one.
Accept and surrender, or fight and burn it all down, the plan will unfold if I have faith. Most of the time, in order for it to be the right time, I just have to get out of my own way.
April 15, 2022
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